I tiptoed into your room one night.
I watched you sleeping there.
Your tiny body looked so snug
Wrapped in peaceful slumber's care.
I thought of how you came to be
The child we'd longed to know.
I wondered at the sight of you:
"How could she let you go?"
Tears streamed down my cheeks as I
Felt the pain she must have known.
For I will have to let you go
Some day when you are grown.
A mother I might never meet
Had given me her son.
Yet, surely as you've filled my heart,
A piece of hers you'd won.
"How could she let you go?"
The question kept returning.
And in the depths of my own heart.
A question kept on burning.
"How can I ever let you go
When years have come and gone?"
I stood there by your crib until
The nighttime turned to dawn.
And as the sun peeked through the shades,
The voice of God broke through.
"I trusted her to give him life
And now I'm trusting to you.
"To show him what is right and wrong,
to love him and to be
The one who teaches him the way
To come back home to me.
"He wasn't hers to give, you know.
And he's not yours to own.
I've placed him in your life to love
But he is mine … on loan."
-Valerie Kay Gwin
-Valerie Kay Gwin
I feel this way about our daughter. Although she was a tiny little embryo when we adopted her I was so happy to carry her and give birth....I still feel like she is just a precious gift from God every day. A gift that came to us through unconventional yet still very orchestrated hand (His hands). And although our donors are anonymous to us...I know in their hearts they love her too and selflessly gave her life. I truly believe that God chooses the souls that will be our children eons before we ever exist. Our daughters have such similar stories...created and frozen before I even met my husband....waited through our infertility and journy to our son through IVF and then to us through EA. I just know it had to be orchestrated by God Himself and that both of my children really are just gifts from him and I try never to forget this. I just read this on another blog earlier tonight and it really did move me. When I saw it again on yours....it just sunk in even more. thank you for sharing.
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Hi, I would love to borrow this and post it on my blog. Thanks!
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