Bad News/Good News

Bad news: our homestudy has been postponed until Monday, March 29.

Good news: we've completed the 2nd of our 3 "work sessions" with the Bethany embryo adoption counselor.

Bad news: We do not like these work sessions.

Good news: At least this next work session we get to talk about fun stuff like what we're "looking" for in a genetic match.

Bad news: We have to talk about this stuff for an hour.

Good news: We signed up for the training seminar we have to complete as part of the "new, improved, expanded training required for returning families."

Bad news: Do I even need to say the bad news about this?

Good news: We are able to do some of the training by video.

Bad news: We actually have to watch this video.

Good news: Once the training is complete, our homestudy will be done and we can officially start the matching process with the embryo specialist.

Bad news: This was not the timing I was told in the beginning.

Good news: I am learning to forgive that indiscretion.

Bad news: Depending on how long the matching process takes, we may not have a transfer until late spring, early summer.

Good news: We ultimately trust God is in control and that this is HIS timing we are working under, not ours or anyone else.

Bad news: I am still not convinced this is how God will choose to get us pregnant.

Good news: That's okay, because I remain convinced we will get preggers again one day.

Now for a goosebumps story. About 2 weeks ago, I was feeling overwhelmed with the impression that one day, we were going to have a baby girl (biological or otherwise) and I was to name her Sienna (or some other spelling variation of that). I was literally bombarded with that name for a period of about 3 days. I think in one day, I came across it like 6 times. I felt convinced God was speaking to me: "You will have a girl one day, and you shall name her Sienna."

I told my Bible study group that last week, and said I really ought to look up what that name means. This week, a sweet girl named Sarah asked me if I had looked it up. I said I had not. She said she had been praying for me since the week prior and decided to look up the name of the meaning. She pulled out her baby names book and found a spelling variant of that name that means, get this, "Promise of God."

I had shivers.

Bad news: I do not like the name Sienna.

Good news: God can make me like it.