"Good News"

We are pregnant! Our beta came back at 77. I finally took a HPT and it was positive!

The sweet, sweet God story behind this is that last night, I got on my knees as I usually do and just prayed and cried out. And then I listened for God to speak. He did, and He said the same thing I've heard from Him before -- "Trust Me."

Except, last night, I heard something else. It was just a still, small voice that said also, "You will get good news tomorrow." And then it just vanished. I believed it to be God, but was still in shock.

And on my way to meet my husband today so we could listen to the voice mail from Nurse Mary together, I was shaking with nerves. Crying. And Jesus and I had a conversation. It went something like this:

Me: Jesus, was that you last night when you said that?
Jesus: Yes. You will get good news today.
Me: Because You know I'm going to question everything I think I've ever heard from you if it's not good news.
Jesus: I know that.
Me: Are you really here, Jesus? Talking to me?
Jesus: Yes.

And then, the first thing out of Nurse Mary's sweet Tennessean mouth on my voice mail, "Britney, it's good news."

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Of course, we all know this is very early and we're not out of the woods yet. However, I'm going to pray, choosing to believe, with great faith and expectation, that this is a viable pregnancy and we will be blessed with a child. However, I also believe this pregnancy will try my faith like no other, and I'm going to be asked to trust Him to the bitter end.

Thank you, Jesus!